EMBRACING THE PAST, HELPS THE PRESENT.

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"Your stronger than you ever realized, without a doubt."





For the last 15 years, I was now stable with my depression.  I was still taking medication, but my coping skills got me to the point where psychiatrist intervention wasn't needed.  I was managing my own home and full- time job.  I was actually getting be to know myself.

March of 2021, I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I want to say my world started crumbling again, but for some reason I didn't feel alone and isolated like I had in the past when bad news came.  I had the support of my new spouse, my adult children, family and even friends. Being emotionally healthy helped me more than I realized.

I was still in shock at the thought.  For so many years in my life, my emotional pain crippled my will to live.  I was now faced with a disease that could kill me, and I wanted it gone!  I listened intently to my doctor's because I wanted to live! 

My particular kind was grade 3 and spread to lymph nodes.  Doctor's said with the present treatment, it would be a very high cure rate.  I started treatment that next month.  Chemotherapy, surgery and then radiation.  I ended treatment in November with 100% clear results.  Being grateful was an understatement.  My body beat it.  This was another kind of recovery for me now.  My body had been through another traumatic event both physically and emotionally.   Now is my journey of learning another new normal.

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